After being a bloggin' fool this week I felt odd not blogging until 6:30 pm today - almost nothing from me for 24 hours!
Ok, no I didn't feel odd. I was too busy praying to feel much of anything except faith in the unknown.
Josh called me yesterday afternoon with some bad financial news. So I said what I always do, "Ok honey, do you want me to get a job?"
The answer is always no from him. And I am glad! But I always offer to show my support.
"Annie, maybe you should. But let's pray about it first."
We prayed. Then he told me to go to one place and apply. I got dressed, his mom watched our kids and I filled out an application.
I felt this really weird peace as I filled it out. I had no idea where the kids would go to daycare, how we'd afford the daycare deposit or even if I could get a short term job that would pay enough to warrant daycare.
But I filled out the app and went home. I prayed over and over that night that if it was God's will he would open all the doors for daycare and hiring. I called 2 friends with in home daycares asking for suggestions (they are both full!).
No one knew of any openings - one even said that my town is short 400 spots! I was starting to get worried but kept my faith.
I asked one friend to pray for me. And tried to prepare myself to be a working mom. What a change this would be! How would I handle it? I shook that thought and knew God would help me. The ironic part was that I was looking for a job after writing a very passionate post about my love for staying home!
Then Josh called me this morning from work. "Annie! God provided the money! You don't have to work!"
I screamed!!
I hugged Bubs and kissed his fat cheeks. I picked up Lizzie Lou and twirled her in circles.
WHO AM I?
I can't believe that I feel this way! When I was a little girl I vowed that no man would ever make me stay home with the kids. I would get a fantastic job after going to college. I'd be a woman that no one could put in a box.
Well, no man has. I stay home because I want to. And I am most certainly not put in a box - I am volunteering in 3 different things, blogging, twittering, DJing and enjoying library story times. What box am I in? I'll bust out!
Even though I can't believe that I am actually loving this Stay at home mom thing, I am ecstatic - no undeniably joyous - that I don't have to go to work!
Friday, October 16, 2009
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I think I can completely understand. I would HATE to get a job now. But, like you, I will always ask "do you think I should get a job?" Sounds like you're a great wife and mommy. I'm so glad to hear your story of faith!! :)
God always provides!
So happy the Lord provided for your need and answered your prayers. = )
Yay, Annie! I'm so glad God met your need! We love you guys and are praying for you.
--Jenny
That's wonderful news!
God works wonders. I love being able to stay home with my daughter, she is not a baby no more but I know shes taken care of, but like you if I new deep down we needed me to work, I would have no problem doing so. I am glad things worked out for you hun, and thanks for the compliments on my blog :) I am a new blogger I have no clue what to blog about most the time but hey when my daughter gets older she can see what all her momma had to say. :)
Change is always tough, but when it comes unexpectedly it can sometimes shake the faith a bit. Yours stayed rock solid, and I am so happy things worked out for your beautiful family.
I can relate to this post so much. I often have wondered if maybe I should go back to work to - but I really don't want to. I enjoy staying home with my kids so much, and I think they are better people because of it. Well - my youngest is 13 now and my son is off at college, but I still like being here for my daughter - so important during the teen years.
I am so happy for you! You have the best job in the world!
I have asked my husband that same question off and on for thirteen years. I can praise God that He has always provided a way that I could stay home with our children. And Annie, so far they've turned out to be great kids. We think we were within God's will and He blessed us.
I am SO glad that you are able to continue to be home. I pray that God will bless your family through your being home.
Oh, i'm so glad! I know you were worried about it. Now you can keep blogging away!
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